Lonesome (part 2)

Where were we? At the Multiple Username Forum that's where!

Lonesome was quite happy there playing with people's emotions but then again lots of people were doing this and she wasn't the only one. Sprawngrill, Butterfingers, and Shootshite were here playing similar games with people's heads too. Thankfully we're not on the planet Earth but on a separate Universe of 'Liarliar' where everybody knows your name.......No that's a different place altogether

Lonesome, picked up a few friends along the way and these friends supported her when she had her diagnosis of cancer she had offers from a couple of them to go and stay with her which Lonesome declined. Lonesome wrote on her blog that her friends her desserting her which made her cyber friends saddened until they realised that Lonesome was talking about her work collegues in the accounts office. Lonesome had been able to continue to work even though she had been diagnosed with 'chronic username syndrome or so she said, She was one of the lucky few because most who are diagnosed with CU have to give up work and leave their homes and go and live under an assumed identity which of course they have made up themselves. Lonesome was different from the other members of the CU forum though in some ways - She had been honest about one aspect of her life......She lived on her own! Yes this is to her credit but the rest was all a complete fabrication. Of course being a chronic Username forum you'd expect everyone to lie but no! This was their home from home where people came to be truthful and to know that there were people there prepared to be dishonest????? This made some members of the CU forum uneasy and the moderators knew about it. The problem was that there were rumblings in the moderator camp but that is another story.

Lonesome was now having strong chemotherapy, her hair was falling out, (so she said) and she was gaining popularity from the threads being posted about her. The author of this blog wonders had an email from Lonesome (because in the real world we were supposedly friends) which said that she was getting emails from someone called Jaysdad. This person was making her life difficult by sending her nasty emails or so she said and I now wonder if Jaysdad had worked out her little plan and was harrassing her? What did it matter, she loved the attention she was getting and having people know she was being harrassed made it all the more unbearable for her and more people felt pity for her.

Lonesome's chemo was only ever described as strong and her friends talked to each other rather than to her about how they felt and their own inner fears. One friend though was more concerned because she had phoned up the hospital to offer a few words of support to Lonesome but found that Lonesome P. Lonesome was not registered there. She emailed another friend (Oh OK she emailed Piglet!) feeling rotten for even bringing the subject up but didn't bring the subject up - All she said was "Do you believe this story?" Hmmmmmm..... NOPE, not really. How hard is it when you have someone who you know is your friend and you think is lying to people? Neither friend had any confirmation and so left it at that apart from feeling that something wasn't right. Both friends decided that maybe Lonesome had an alternative surname but she'd never mentioned it? .......Marriage was a subject which was later to come up in Pigletwiglet's work but not yet.

Time went by and months flew past and thankfully Lonesome was manageing to get through every chemo session and every infection which was thrown at her and believe me she got EVERY INFECTION! What did seem strange was that she was never admitted to hospital even when her temperature was over 100 which is the norm (Re; members of a NHL forum Pigletwiglet joined but honestly telling the members WHY she was there!!!!) On one occassion Lonesome was caught out by Piglet;- Piglet had quite innocently invited Lonesome to join her with Yahoo messenger and one morning London time, Lonesome suddenly appeared online when she was supposed to be in hospital? Funny how she didn't want to answer her 'DING DONG' Detective Pigletwiglet was rather perplexed again and wondered what on earth her doctor was doing letting her go home in the middle of the night Lonesome's time? The following day we all had our answer, even though Lonesome's temperature was still 104f her doctor had let her go home. Please people if you have any form of cancer do not go and see that doctor because he kicks you out of bed in the middle of the night and says "Go home with you".....Actually what probably happened was he realised too that she was making up her story and took a large foot and kicked her arse out of there.

So now little niggles were becoming bigger ones but still nothing concrete. Poor old Pigletwiglet needed surgery to remove a bunion and so she had to concentrate all of her energies on this and forgot about that silly girl across the pond for a while untill about July when........

That's for tomorrow

Lonesome

Once upon a time in cyberland, there was a great big friendly place with happy moderators who loved everyone and never banned anyone for no reason and this place was called Chatplace. Chatplace was a wonderful community where people met. It had individual forums for people to go to and speak of their woes. Lonesome found this joyous place and decided to join the 'Chronic Username Forum'.(Name changed to protect its identity!!!!!) This forum was mainly for people who were addicted to joining forums using multiple names and at that time Lonesome didn't realise she was supposed to have all of these differing identities. Lonesome's problem wasn't the same as the Chronic Usernamers but she wasn't prepared to tell anyone and still hasn't been prepared to tell anyone though the writer of this tale has tried to get her to be honest as have others.... (Long sentence)

Lonesome pretended that she had the same problem just to fit in with the crowd and then for some reason unbeknownst to the forum she disappeared???

Lonesome returned over a year later and was welcomed by the group which supported her because she had a tragic tale to tell - Both of her parents had been killed in a car crash. Yes, this was a terrible time for poor Lonesome and it was fantastic for her to have such wonderful support and to be the centre of attention. She certainly needed it because in the real world this was a complete fabrication but something in her life triggered her to tell this story. I don't think anyone really cared if it was true or not? I suspect that a few genuine people in the CU Forum were more worried about Lonesome's mental welfare and I'm not going to joke about that.

A few months later, Lonesome went to the doctors, (allegedly). She hadn't told anyone that she had been ill and in fact hadn't told anyone about her symptoms of 'Chronic Username-isms'. It was almost as though she was keeping it quiet because she had found a group of people who were accepting her but she really had nothing wrong with her? Lonesome, sent out an email to her friends and it stated that she had an aggressive form of Non Hodgkin's Lymphoma. It was already at stage III and thankfully one of her friends was a nurse however sadly, this friend could confirm that this cancer was going to kill Lonesome. When NHL turns into an aggressive form, it almost always does plus it had entered so many parts of her body. At least three of Lonesome's friends cried that night.......At least three of Lonesome's friends probably more have cried in the next few months.

I need to lighten up this story again don't I? Don't forget everyone, we are in cyberland and ANYTHING can happen can't it? In cyberland miracles happen!

I say this in almost every blog entry concerning this person - I wish her well and hope she can one day be honest with herself.

Coming up in future entries,
The NHL year and how we all allowed ourselves to be duped and how I felt and still feel.
How friendships have become stronger because of this person
What you can do in the same situations and learn from my mistakes. (Remember you're dealing with someone who is mentally unwell).

Afternoon....

What would you like to read about first?

Maybe it ought to be a warning.

Be careful with whom you share your information with out there because not everyone is to be trusted. I have learnt the hard way and it has caused me pain and suffering. I have no doubt that I will fall into the trap of a cyber nutcase again and maybe I will be hurt by a so called friend who will turn out to not be the person I thought they were but there's nothing I can do about that?
So be careful out there people. The internet can be a wonderful place to make long lasting friendships and I have made some beautiful ones of which I am very proud. My friends know who they are both the ones I have met on the net and none from the cyber airwaves. They know I care about them. The problem is that I tend to be taken in to easily and that has been why I've been let down by people.

This blog is partly fun and partly to help me let off steam. I will use it to talk about my feelings in some entries but in others I will talk about how I found out information on those people and how YOU can find out information on people too. It is a facinating world and I am amazed at what I have been able to do? I won't snoop on friends though - Not a chance! Friends always come first in my book and the funny thing is that I ended up involving myself in this because of my close friendships. Sadly I lost someone I thought was a friend out of it but obviously she wasn't worth having. More on that later.

I said before no names because what is the point? I shall give every person a new name instead. I am not sure whether to start with Lonesome or Chicken? Maybe a bit of both!!!

Detective Pigletwiglet has arrived

Or Detective PGT to her friends

A couple of months ago, I had to purchase a programme for my computer which has given me an insight I never thought I'd have. I say I 'had' to buy because I genuinely did have to buy it!

Initially the reason for purchasing it was to help me and a couple of friends confirm the identity of a lady of sadly was lying about her life. I know this all sounds petty but I run a community and this was not a little lie. This woman had originally said that her parents had died in a tragic car crash and then some months later she was diagnosed with a life threatening cancer. She was always very cagey about the information but this cancer (Non Hodgkins Lymphoma) is aggresive and the sort that kills you. I won't talk too much about it now because that's all to come.
There are other people I've researched since buying this programme. It's given me downloads to read and I've taken in more information than I ever thought I was possible. I had not realised that so much information was available at the touch of a key? That said, it's also possible to spy on people and that is horrifying!!!

I won't be naming names or detroying people. That's not what this blog is about. It's for me to let go of all of my hurt and anger and not for it to taint my other blog. So if you want to read this that's fine. It's not sensationalism, but it is true - EVERY LITTLE BIT OF IT.